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Project Rebirth

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Yes, I’m back again, ready to give this yet another try.

I appreciate that my followers seem to have hung on despite this blog being largely inactive for ages. There’s a TON I want to say here, so I’ll apologize if this gets long and rambling.

So where have I been? Getting knocked around by life, falling on my butt, and struggling to get back up again. Dealing with fears and doubts that I thought I’d beaten, only to have them attack me from a different angle.

Reality is, I doubt I’m much different from anyone else. Especially those of us who are gifted with spiritual awareness and a connection to the Divine. So, part of my reason for writing this is to encourage all of you who have beat up by life to rise up and keep going. The world is becoming a dark place, and it needs every scrap of light and positive energy it can get. The ugly tone of politics, all the half true allegations flying around there and elsewhere… It’s NOT an accident. Neither, I believe is some of the misfortune we’ve been suffering.

First, if you want to recover, focus on recovery. Wallowing in injustices real and perceived only brings your spiritual energy to a lower vibration and keeps you stuck.

Second, and even more important, I’m not advocating rising up like some army or trying to become a superhero. There’s only ONE way to beat the combination of spiritual and human evil in the world today. That’s to pray, meditate and try to bring as much white light into the world as possible. Don’t lecture people. I think that’s the biggest flaw of organized religion. Instead, set a positive example via your words and ACTIONS.

Think of the world as a dark room full of people with unlit candles, and you hold a lit one. You light the next person’s candle with your own, then they spread that light to the next person, and so on. Before you know it, the entire room is overflowing with light. There’s no magical games involved, no forcing opinions on people, or debating with negative ones. Just be the best you that you can and let that light inspire others.

You WILL get tested again. Maybe knocked down again. There are hundreds of motivational sayings about the person who wins is the one who gets up one more time than they’re knocked down. Work on shielding. Work on your prayer and meditation. Work on improving your connection to the Divine. Pay attention to your intuition and guidance from above. It will warn you of impending danger IF you listen.

I’ve been knocked down repeatedly. Wrecked lower back, a neck that’s in even worse shape, inability to hold a regular job due to health issues, and that’s just the recent stuff. Verbally abusive mother, a violent drunk first step father that tried to shoot us all at one point, etc… It’s been bad and yes, I HAVE fallen into the bitterness and self-pity trap at points.

Again, that only draws more negative energy to you, which in turn attracts more negative events. You have to be determined to perservere.

There’s a great line from Rocky 4 also, where he’s talking about facing Ivan Drago:

“Maybe I can’t win. Maybe the only thing I can do, is just take everything he’s got. But to beat me… he’s going to have to kill me… and to kill me, he’s gotta have to heart to stand in front of me. And to do that, he’s gotta be willing to die himself… and I don’t know if he’s ready to do that.”

The Rocky analogy is a good one for this situation too. If you remember that fight, Rocky started out being boo’ed and hated by the partisan Russian crowd. He displayed heart and eventually won the crowd over with his refusal to quit. The world will test you just like spiritual powers will. Eventually your light will spread. If it doesn’t spread, at least as far as you like, take satisfaction in any good you have done and ignore the critics. They’ll always be there.

Either way, be that dettermined. Except for killing people, lol. The bottom line is that life changes when you’re sick and tired of being sick and tired.

You may not have to hit rock bottom, but you do have to be tired of living the way you are. Be determined to work and struggle for more. Never let anybody tell you that you can’t do it, you’re an idiot, etc… People like that are only projecting their fears and insecurities onto you.

If you all didn’t guess, this is where I’m at now. “Project Rebirth” is my resolution that I’m not living this way anymore. Like a Phoenix, I WILL rise again

I’m going to use every physical therapy, medical and spiritual option I can find to regain my health and my life. I’m through hearing I can’t do it. I’m through listening to my fears. From now on, they’re a “prove me wrong” challenge. I’m going to stand my gently and politely stand my ground also when I know I’m facing an evil or an injustice. It may take me years to get back to full health, but I will prevail.

And yes, I’m returning to my spiritual studies as well. I’m not sure how much I’ll have new here in terms of techniques, etc… but at the very least I’ll share my journey instead of hiding from it.

A Lesson From Hawaiian Huna

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I had another article that I was going to do first, BUT I think this is important for laying the groundwork for the other post.  Heck, maybe I’ll cover more about Huna after this, as I’ve been fascinated by it for ages.  For those NOT in the know, Huna is a Hawaiian spiritual philosophy (not a religion).  There’s not a ton written about it.  That’s largely because it’s made up of 7 simple precepts.  However, the more you practice and think about them, the more you’ll realize how they connect and the deeper meanings and possibilities.

This isn’t the first precept, but it’s the one I’m going to talk about today.  Maybe I’ll do the others in future posts.  This one is a key concept for Empaths and anybody with spiritual gifts to grasp though:

Energy Flows Where Attention Goes

Odd but true story; I was reciting this one on my own (the exact wording) since I was 7 or 8 years old.  That was long before I’d heard of spirituality in any form beyond organized Christian religion.  Then again, I’ve been told I’m reincarnated from Mu (Lemuria); the mythical Polynesian ancestral home also.

If you think about it, nearly every school of spiritual teaching has SOME variation on this idea.  It’s a key principle in the Law of Attraction.  It’s a basic psychology concept too.  I think Huna puts it most concisely however.

So why is the concept important?  Because like energies attract.  That means you get more of what you focus on.  This is doubly dangerous for an empath.  Get caught up in negative emotions (usually not even your own), focus on them, and what you’re doing is drawing even more negative energy towards you (and into your system).  This is a common trap for emapths.  Its why so many of us stay miserable until some big event that’s charged with positive emotional energy shocks the empath out of their pattern.

The drivel nowadays that feelings are sacred and we should wallow in them endlessly only helps to deepen the trap.  Feelings are many things, but first and foremost they’re tools and meant to be balanced by the tool of intellect.

From any spiritual standpoint, never focus on the problem.  All you’ll do is feed it and make it bigger.  Acknowledge the problem, but put your focus on all the possible solutions.  You’ll draw positive energy to you and open the doors to a solution instead of perpetuating the problem.

As I mentioned earlier, this idea even carries over to psychology.  So whether you believe it’s a matter of spiritual energy or simple mindset, it holds true.

If you’re curious about the Law of Attraction aspect of this and why the LOA never seems to work for most poeople…  There’s a trick there also.  You don’t get what you want; you get what you believe you deserve.  That’s why egomaniacs and sociopaths always seem to to so well in life until karma catches up with them.  What you believe you deserve is always where the majority of your energy will go though.

If you REALLY want to change your life; learn to think positive, believe in your self worth (without becoming a narcissist) and remember that Energy Flows Where Attention Goes.

Don’t Judge?

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This concept came up yet again in Liz’s reply to my last post.  I think it’s one I have to voice an opinion on now.  The thing is, judging situations and people is an important part of life.  It’s doubly so for empaths if we’re to avoid being exploited and manipulated.  Let’s start with the obvious.  Is it wrong to judge:

  1. Pedophiles
  2. Murderers
  3. Rapists

I doubt anybody remotely rational would say it’s wrong.  I’ve met a few crazies that would excuse that kind of behavior though.  I think where some well-meaning people in the middle get tripped up is that they can’t or don’t want to understand that you can judge a behavior and person as wrong while still having some understanding of the circumstances that led a person to do something bad.  You can have sympathy for a drunk driver having  just been dumped, but that doesn’t excuse their killing 3 other people while driving drunk.

 

All of this sort of leads back to my post on boundaries.  We have to be able to make judgments about right and wrong, people and situations to be able to establish reasonable boundaries.  In my opinion, the key lies in the proper translation of that Bible verse: “Judge not unrighteous judgments, lest ye be judged”.  To me, that means you do NOT go for blood over an argument caused by somebody having a bad day.  The reaction has to rationally fit the situation, factoring in if it’s a repeating issue.

Another part of that is letting go of hate and anger.  OK, your significant other cheated on you and left (as another example).  It’s fair to say they’re a bad person.  It’s also fair to say you don’t want to see them again.  Beyond that, let it go.  Hanging onto hate only poisons your own soul, blocks your growth as a person and allows no room for better things to take the place of what you lost.  All of that is the start of proper, wise judgment.

 

Part of the reason I rally against the “no judgment” crowd is that it’s so often used as another way to manipulate people into saying they should have no standards, no discernment and no common sense.  These folks are sometimes doing things they know are morally or legally wrong and don’t want to be called on it, OR just use “don’t judge” as a way to shut down debate, and guilt or bully people into their point of view.  Ironically, the last type is VERY prone to judging people they disagree with.

 

So there you have it.  It’s perfectly fine to judge, just do so with wisdom and compassion.

Facing Fears

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I think it’s past due time I got back to writing here.  Anybody also following my other blog will know I’ve had some serious self-doubt eating at me recently.  I didn’t discuss the spiritual end of things in the other blog though.  Mundanes tend to get weirded out by this stuff. 🙂

On the spiritual end though, there’s self doubts over lousy past lives.  No details here, I’m a bit too private.  My biggest concern is that the information I give here will be misused to hurt others though.  I had a friend that I did alot to help spiritually.  I went out on a huge karmic limb for her, and I taught her the energy techniques I’ve posted here.  She turned around and used them to attack anybody who offended her in the slightest and badly hurt another former friend of hers.  That despite constantly preaching to her that spiritual abilities should only be used for knowledge and defense.

I felt guilty about it for a long time.  Still do, to a degree.  Mr Miyagi was wrong though; there is such a thing as a bad student.  All a spiritual teacher can do is try to impart wisdom with offered knowledge.  They can’t force the person they’re mentoring to follow a moral path.  I did cut her off once it became clear she was misusing her knowledge and had no intention of changing.  That’s all I could morally do.

As for the past lives…  Well…  That can all be summed up as “you can’t even keep your own lives together, how are you going to offer anything to anyone else?” Exaggeration, but self-doubt is evil in what it will tell you.

 

I’ve decided to keep going forward here though.  First *I* need this blog, as a reminder to myself of all these things.  When we get overwhelmed with life and drama we forget simple things like grounding away negative energy instead of wallowing in it as a victim.  It’s a tool for me to fight the self doubt and negative energy.

Secondly, and perhaps more importantly, at this point I think it’s more important to help fellow empaths and try to put the knowledge out there for the right people than it it is to worry if a bad person might misuse it.  Their karma will fall on them.

In the meantime, the number of empaths and other spiritually gifted people out there seem to be growing, while the establishment tries harder and harder to label us all as crazed or confused.  I think I have a moral obligation to try to help where I can.  While I may not be the most eloquent teacher, I do have an ability to cut through the crap and veiled language common in spiritual teaching.

 

False Compassion + An Update

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Back among the living after a draining day yesterday with my step-father’s funeral.  He was ultimately a positive anchor for the family (mainly my mom) so I’m not looking forward to where things MAY go from here with him gone.  I get back to my blog and email after a day and a half, and I had 114 email notifications to go through.  Fun times. LOL.  Three hours later I’m done.

One post in particular that I read inspired today’s post here.  It was about how Walls Don’t Work.  Political commentary, but there’s a larger issue here, especially for empaths.

Walls & boundaries DO work.  Not perfectly.  NOTHING created by humans ever will work perfectly.  If there are no boundaries of any sort, people will walk all over you, so YES it’s OK to say NO.

BTW, the book “Boundaries” by Dr Henry Cloud is GREAT reading on how to set reasonable boundaries.

So how does false compassion tie into both personal boundaries and physical walls?  First we have to define it.  False compassion is an idea or action that FEELS good but does nothing to fix a problem or only makes it worse.  The easiest example is the stereotypical “Give a drunk a drink”.  They may feel better short term, but you’ve only prolonged their suffering.

Let’s go with another example here in my home town.  It’s a good one because it also illustrates how false compassion can negatively impact others as well.  We have a huge homeless population problem here.  Part of that problem is that they go through neighborhoods on trash pickup nights, ransack cans and dump trash all over the place.  There have been some ugly fights about the issue on a certain community based website network that I wont give publicity to also.  The false compassion crowd says people have no right to complain because home owners have more.  They virtue signal about how they give money to these homeless people also and how wonderful they are for doing it.

Point out that you’re doing nothing to change the situation for the homeless, that you’d be better off giving that money to shelters that help them get off the street, and you’re attacked as a selfish nazi.

The point here is that false compassion is a form of manipulation and emotional blackmail.  It guilts people wrongly into doing things, and often with the only benefit being it keeps the guilter from doing anything meaningful about the situation themself.

Let’s look at the border wall example.  First let me say I believe we need immigration reform along with the wall.  I’ve seen first hand that there ARE jobs Americans won’t do (A major sign of a dying civilization BTW), and good people deserve a shot at the American Dream also.

BUT…  If you boil the Wall issue down to a personal level, what you have is your neighbor saying that you have a bigger house and more things than they do.  Because of that, your neighbor’s family is ENTITLED to come in and take what they want, make use of the house any way they see fit, etc…  If you say anything about it, even objecting to ONE member of the family being a felon, then you’re a racist, nationalist, nazi, etc…

If you doubt that’s the mentality, remember the news footage of the caravan members throwing rocks and trying to rush the border to get past the Border Patrol there.

Again, I’m not heartless.  I believe we should help who we can, individually and as a country.  There’s a BIG difference between your neighbor asking for help dealing with a problem and demanding you fix it for them.

So yes, a wall is only a proper boundary.  It’s designed to help us control who comes into our country, just like a front door is designed to let you control who comes into your house.  Neither are a perfect defense.  Again, no such thing.  That front door can be kicked in, BUT it’s a strong start, isn’t it?

The VAST majority of people from Central and South America are honest, very hard working people.  They deserve a chance to come here temporarily to work or to try to become citizens.  We also have a right and a moral obligation to the public to make a real effort to keep the drugs, gang members and human traffickers OUT however.

And again, the lesson spills back over to surviving as an empath also.  You have a right to establish boundaries, not be used by people, and maintain control of YOUR life.  There are people you want to let into your life, and some you want to exclude.  That’s fine, and don’t let anybody guilt trip and manipulate you into believing otherwise.  Often, it’s just an excuse to become an emotional drain on you.

Triple Goose Egg…

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Just a little bit of grumbling here…

Three days with zero views.  That despite the fact I added 11 pages to the blog,split between 2 directory tabs that count as pages.

I guess people aren’t that interested after all…  I’m going to give it a few more days before I decide about shutting this down.

Exhausted

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I know it looks like I’ve been neglecting this blog in favor of the writing one, BUT I am doing a great deal of work behind the scenes.  I have a half dozen pages in first draft stage and after a little editing, they should be ready to go.  🙂

I’m honestly amazed I’ve gotten as much done as I have.  The last few days have been fairly busy.  More than all the stuff I’ve had to take care of, the family crap surrounding my step-father’s death is working my last good nerve.

My mom is showing early signs of backsliding into her old bitchy persona that caused me to shut the family out for 20 years.  Too many snarky remarks for my liking.

My uncle…  Well, he’s got the world’s most inappropriate sense of humor, and he drinks a bit too much also, which only makes it worse.  When my mom called him to let him know that my stepfather was on his death bed, my uncle offered to drive up and bring his gun.

My brother…  He’s absorbed my mom’s negativity over the years and trash talks everybody behind their back, telling distorted accounts of events, making character assassinations, etc…  His BS is a large contributor to the conflict that kept me away for years. Did I mention he’s a total drunk also?

Anyway, after he and my mom spent years poisoning my step-father’s family against me, I was reluctant to come up and say goodbye.  He died about an hour before we arrived also.  Soooo, my brother decides he’s going to play the self-righteous jackass (doesn’t it suck never knowing what redheads really think? LOL) and he’s not talking to me now because I didn’t want to visit.  Never mind he didn’t come to visit my mom at all on Thursday after the death.  He just went to work as if it was business as normal.  Hypocrite.

Nothing but conflict and drama… God I can’t wait to move away from all of them later this year.  It’s taking way too much effort to keep my spiritual and physical energy up.

The Journey Begins

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Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

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I figured I’d keep this easy getting started.  I have a hellacious schedule as of late, yet at the same time feel compelled to start writing on the subject here.

The main reason is after all these years I’m still struggling to find myself spiritually.  A subject I’ll delve into further when I have more time.  I’m hoping in the meantime that I can also help other people in a similar boat make sense of their journeys.

Being an empath or being sensitive to spiritual energies, experiencing past lives, etc… are all things that are difficult to figure out and come to terms with.  Society in general would just as soon label you eccentric at best, crazy at worst.  There are manipulative, destructive people who will exploit your curiosity and talents, and to be blunt, there’s just a TON of straight out crap out there also.  My goal here is to be a refuge from allof that for myself and others.

I’ll never claim to have all the answers.  I also believe that some answers don’t work for everybody.  So, if you’re looking for a Guru with all the answers, I’m not them.  I’d also caution you that I believe there’s NO such thing.  Everybody’s path, obstacles and life lessons are different, at least to a degree.  Ergo, I encourage readers to consider possibilities and think for themselves.

That said, readers will find I *do* have some strong opinions on a few things.  I believe drugs and spirituality do NOT mix for example.  Again, a topic for another time.  Unlike my writing blog, this one will most likely be closed for comments.  I will have a contact page open though.

So stay tuned…  I’ll have alot more to say and share as I get this blog organized.